This is part 3 (and conclusion) of this series describing my Ayahuasca journey in Peru.
This post is describing my third ceremony, which was the third of three over a five day period.
If you haven’t already, read the following posts first to get caught up on the story:
- I Was Bored, Frustrated, and Lonely… and I Freaked Out
- All About Ayahuasca
- My Ayahuasca Journey – Part 1, Night 1
- My Ayahuasca Journey – Part 2, Night 2
Don’t worry, this one is only half as long as last week’s instalment!
Recovering from the Most Intense Night of My Life…
I slept maybe ten minutes the whole night.
When the ayahuasca finally finally wore off (from night 2), I was so completely exhausted and battered. And very scared and anxious.
What will the third night be like?? Will I have to go through that again??
The message was loud and clear from the first two nights. I knew what I needed to do.
Accept. Trust. Let go. And stop being such a damn control freak.
It seemed so daunting and overwhelming. And so came the anxiety. Heart racing. Not being able to eat. Heavy knot in my stomach all day.
I was very emotionally frazzled, but luckily we had a day off now… a one day break to recharge before the next ceremony.
I spent the next two days unloading my personal insights about my night on anyone who would listen as a way to process everything. The shamans, the helpers, the other participants, my new roommate, and I cried in Luke’s lap. [Read more…]